Questival

Let the adventures begin my friends! Kareokeeeeeeee

Meh.

I. Am. Bored.

Cell Phone Batteries

Do you ever have moments where you are just tired? Not physically, but in all the other ways? Mentally, emotionally, spiritually? I feel like that right now. Just drained. In the words of one of my favorite songs, I feel like I have a "battered soul" the world just seems to be harassing it right now. Maybe it's because I am just 36 days away from heading out on my mission, Elder Holland said that moments before you are about to experience something spiritually life altering, there can be incredible amounts of opposition from the adversary. It's odd but I just feel stuck, at this weird state of being right now. But just as in the first vision, where the pillar of light appeared above Joseph Smiths head the moment he thought the darkness was going to overtake him I know God is nearer than we think when we feel its impossible to go any further experiencing what we are experiencing. I once heard it put this way: Cell phone batteries must not be plugged in until the battery is dead or at least very low. If they are they become weak over time and can only hold power to that point before needing to be plugged in again. So by not constantly plugging in our half used cell phone batteries, we are making them stronger, able to sustain themselves for longer amounts of time. Just like with cell phone batteries sometimes God may hold back his heavenly help in trials so that we become stronger and self sustaining in those trials rather than weak and quick to die out. "All these things shall work together for your good." Just have to keep that in mind...keep on keepin' on.

Lesson From the Kiddos'

Today was sooo fun! And weird! A married man asked me for my number for his friend who he has a feeling should take me on a date... okay, can you tell we are in Utah yet? Haha so funny. I got to help with a fundraiser for Tessa, who is on her third round of Cancer relapse. It was great to see how many people came to support her! At one point I was over the three legged race for kids. It was incredibly cute!! In a pair of brothers that were racing, the younger one kept falling and the older just kept reaching down, lifting him up, setting him back on his feet, and telling him it was okay and to keep going. What made it so touching was they were probably 4 and 6 year olds. As I watched the thought popped into my mind, that, that is the reason for us to be here on earth. To encourage, lift, and lighten our brothers and sisters no matter how many times they fall, or hold us back in the race of life (the time it takes out of our day). To show charity. That is why we are here and it was inspiring to see it displayed so plainly by such young examples.

Young and In Love With Life

Well, I am twenty and one years as of yesterday at 6:03 am. Wowza! I feel so young, haha seriously,  I thought I was older but 21 is practically a baby. I had the very best birthday yesterday! I came home from class to the cutest box of flowers sent from the fam.  I LOVED IT!!! Also went to a banquet at Hamiltons (really ritzy restaurant) for Ambassadors and it was so fun to get all dressed up and sip pink lemonade among friends. I just loved every moment of the day, Kneaders with Aub and Kyron, Twizzleberry with the gang, just good good stuff.  *also had the cutest encounter with my main man ;) 

(just a smidge of a crush)

This weekend me and my Snow Co. had a smidge of a photo shoot, soo fun! Xxoo!!

Feeding Wolves

I once heard a story that went something like this:

An old Cherokee told his grandson,  "My son, there is a battle between two wolves inside us all. One is EVIL. It's anger, jealousy, greed, resentment, inferiority, lies, and ego. The other is GOOD. It's joy, peace, love, hope, humility, kindness, and truth." The boy thought about it, and asked: "Grandfather, which wolf wins?" The old man quietly replied: "The one you feed."

Lately I have been feeding the evil wolf. To those of you whom have experienced this from me, I am sorry. I especially want to apologize to my roomie/music & fashion soulmate, you mean a great deal to me. I really feel terrible about lashing out in the heat of my jealousy and feelings of inferiority, there is no excuse for that kind of attitude and I'm sorry. I am sorry that my insecurities were taken out on you.

A suggestion found on pinterest today said to "Beginning today: treat everyone you meet as if they were going to be dead by midnight. Extend to them all the care, kindness, and understanding you can muster and do it with no thought of  any reward. Your life will never be the same again."

 I think that is a great way to start feeding the good wolf and I challenge myself to do it.

Butterflies

Happy Birthday Relief Society!!! We had a par-tay for it a week or so ago, so much fun! Really yummy cake. A lady from the stake shared a story: Some students were sent home with cocoons to watch butterflies break through a fly. One girl noticed her butterfly was working awfully hard to break free from her cocoon, so she snipped the edges of it with some scissors and waited for the ex-caterpillar to fly. The butterfly plopped out onto the counter with the lower half of its wings shriveled and unable to function. It later died. Each butterfly has to work and struggle to get out of the cocoon in order for the bottom wings to get proper juices flowing. Just like those butterflies we all have challenges, that are God given, for each of us to become stronger and one day fly.